date: Friday, March 11, 2005 @ 12:37 am
title: Thursday..
I finally made it for morning assembly.
I reached school at 7.35 a.m..
Another short day I guess, but was exceptionally short with abit of emotional hiccups.
My guess is that I missed God. Belah! >.<
I haven't been talking to Him much abt my life.
It's more like lovesick..
Lessons were dry today. Econs was more livelier. GP was a failure with some impressive comments from her abt my views on ' Shattered Glass'. Chinese was movie time. Ponned Maths.
I was quite amazed by my buddies' reaction,
" ZHan! Repeat what you just say.."
" I'm ponning GP!"
" WOW!! that's the first time I hear this.."
O well.. I didn't know I have such a reputation on stake, so gave into their reaction. I blindly entered the den of 'death'- GP lesson..
Now..
I'm in deep self-discussion with my sub-conscious: what and when did I say something that resulted in a scandal of my own.. At times, I'm known to be confusing in my speech that may accidentally spark a scandal without my own prior knowledge of my own actions. Actions that give birth to uneasy incidents. Both the victim and I..
Maybe is the overly zealous reaction I have with some individuals that undoubtfully incurred a chain of envy.. Na!! Kidding..
The bottom of the story: Be sociable but to a certain extent. >.<
I must try to ignore all these rumors. -concentrating-
I need to know when to turn off the flow of unedifying saying..
And turn on the mouth of wisdom.
Sentosa, island of drooling and more drooling..
Yup. After like soooooo long. It's my first time stepping onto the white sand along the raging waves clashing against the cleanest beach (in S'pore context).
Zi Yi, Tina, Celine, Jia Ying and Yan Fang..
Mattatis, Xian Jun, Chun Keat and ME!!
9 Beach Rummers..
Only Xian Jun and I were the daring ones to display unashamed of our imperfectly toned 'hot' bodies with obviously tanned forearms.. :) We were the MAN!! Ha!
Zi Yi, Jia Ying and I were the brave ones who tested the water first, while the rest fled to the changing room to do the necessary. The water is green clean and very, as in really really very salty.. A mouth of it, will keep me on low-salt diet for a least 3 hours for my kidney to function and process it.
O well.. Holy Spirit just spoke to me.
I was contemplating why it's so Sssssssssssssalty.
He replied that it was to keep out the marine species to infest the beach.. Woo..
Ha! I'm back online with God. :)
Psalm 119 was the connection.
I did a semi-soaking and sleeping.. den His presence came down like a cloth, thrown over my restless body. He spoke to me and ministered to me.
After that, I rose to have my supper and got into praise and worship by strumming guitar, read Proverbs and chatted with Him abt things that mattered to me. :)
Awesome to be One with Him after so much of a struggle during the week..
I was though a trekker lost in the jungle with a not-so-functioning compass. I lost my direction in life. I'm a person of clear cuts. Either black or white, like Right or Wrong. I dun like the feeling of doing something that displease Him and get back to square one to start all over again. I want MORE!! of Him and accelerate in my calling.
I want definite answers to my question.
I luv to raise questions and try to drown Him with them.
But He looks at my heart and decide whether to answer them. :)
Okie..
Sentosa was loads of fun.
Water splashing and sand lauching..
I was the master mind who caused Chun Keat to lose his specs when he was brushing off the sand on his face by the sea.. And conclusion.. Girls are rougher and wilder than guys.
Sentosa.. another site of memories.
I came across the Art of Killing Time (Part II): Self-photoshooting..
People just can't get enough portrait of themselves when a camera of any kind lands on their fingertips. Snapshots after snapshots..
Oh yar.. I found my childhood. Gameboy!!!
I couldn't believe that it overcame the technology discrimination, in which I still find it entertaining. I could feel the aura on my fingertips, pressing and controlling..
We reached mainland around 5:30 pm..
After a long discussion, we went on our separate directions.
I met up with Wei Jun to have dinner and also to help him tie his G2000 brand new bluish poker-dots tie. We met at the North face of Indoor Stadium.
Leisure park is now a dead building with the sense of eerieness..
The forsaken palace of bustling activities over the weekends..
We ended up eating by the Kallang River, where we chatted until the night turned into darkness. He had to report for choir practice. Bleah!
Actually, I have certain connection that surely enables me to crash the rehearsal, but I passed. Dun want to trouble people.. Not very nice though. I went home and home sweet home I went.
Tomorrow's Benny Hinn..
So have to sleep now to be physically awake.
Sleep! ZZZZzzzz...
